a fairly accurate portrayal of my eating habits...

2 c. Rice Krispies with 1 c. skim
1 Splenda packet
1 piece of white toast
1/2 slice fried bologna
4 large marshmallows
Diet Pepsi

Diet Pepsi
Baby Ruth bar

Gatorade G2

~3 platefuls of spagetti with meat sauce
2 or 3 brown and serve rolls
Diet Pepsi

1 Fruit Roll-Up (may have eaten 1 earlier too, can't remember)

This is why I suck. I am addicted to food. I don't know what to do. I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy, but I just am not able to step away and say no.

I walked 1.24 miles on the treadmill today, 30 minutes. I tried to do the first Couch to 5k workout, but I don't think it's intended for those 300+ pounds. That'll have to wait. Still, I can't find too much happiness in that accomplishment when I'm eating like the hog that I am.

oops

I have sucked at keeping this updated, which I hope will change as things settle down with school soon. I've been keeping up with my treadmill routine and have walked 23.52 miles since October 13. I know it might not sound like a lot, but it's pretty awesome for me! This week I've been down with some kind of upper respiratory/sinus infection, so that's kept me off the treadmill some. I'm going to try to get to it today, though.

As far as eating goes, however, I've been a little sucky. And my weight has stayed pretty much even at 308.8.

Semi-smooth sailing!

I'm really proud of myself right now. I just got off the treadmill, making this four days in a row that I've exercised, despite my dad being sick and in the hospital (nothing too serious and he's home now), work, school, stress. I feel like if I can make time and find the energy to exercise amidst all THIS, then surely I can keep it up.

I say this is going semi-smooth, though, because I've not really been focusing on my eating at all. But hey, one thing at a time. I'm going to see how the scale responds this week, and then focus more on my food next week.

Finally!

I think I got this. I just walked a mile on the treadmill. It took me 30 minutes at 2.0 mph, which I KNOW is pretty slow, but you know, it's a start and I feel awesome!

Also, my last blog was a little weird, haha. I actually posted after midnight on Sunday, meaning it should have read October 13, not October 12. My calendar was just stuck on my toolbar, making me think Monday was the 12th, haha. But yesterday kind of sucked anyway, so.

Also, the Twilight audiobook is a great motivator! I'm only going to listen on the treadmill, that way I have to walk if I want to find out (again) what happens.

I need to find a solid place to track my weigh-ins. I'm not sure how the sidebar thing works...